Yesterday could have gone a bit better. On the surface it wasn’t too bad most of the day, but the times my poor hubby was home it was definitely at it’s worst.
This place of transition was really getting to me, and the fears were starting to creep in and take over. For most of the day, I failed to take my own advice – I failed to embrace where I was and what I was feeling.
Then I lost it.
The fears, the self-doubt, the feelings that were welling up inside me – all erupted and came spilling out of me. It wasn’t one of my best moments, but it was necessary. Now that I was able to get it all out, I’m able to move forward just a bit better.
Moving forward, I realized that I need to be more open about these feelings (in a peaceful way) with John. The poor guy didn’t know what hit him last night. My goal is to not let it get to that point. On the other hand, I still have to make sure that I’m not dwelling on those feelings. Thankfully, once I’ve voiced my concerns to the right person, I’m usually able to let it go. I know that’s not everyone, but I want to encourage you to figure out what works best in your life.
Along the same note, I know there will be more posts on self-discovery. You have the unique perspective of seeing us struggling; and you will watch as we intentionally work to over-come our struggles.
The Lord Giveth, and the Lord Taketh Away!